Dark

It's those nights when I can feel

your arms wrapped around me

When they really aren't,

Those nights when I can hear

your soothing voice lulling me to sleep

When it really isn't,

Those nights when I can see 

the moonlight shining through my window

as you slide both curtains open

because you said you were too afraid to lose me,

But that's what happened,

I lost you to the darkness

-c.s.m

Lonely

It's just me and my empty cardboard boxes that were once full of pizza
It's just me and my non-stop sad and romantic music softly playing in the background
It's just me and my empty tissue boxes and tissue all over the sofa
It's just me and my cold bowls of ramen noodles
It's just me and my soft blanket that I am currently cuddling with
Tonight
And I hate it
Because you should be here with me tonight
Eating endless boxes of pizza and cold bowls of ramen
Listening to non-stop sad and romantic music
Crying over dramatic but lovely movies
Cuddling on the sofa
But the worst thing is;
You aren't


-c.s.m



(Inspired by I Am Very Very Lonely by Chance The Rapper)

Here

If you're feeling down
Just know that I'm here for you
Even if you feel like the saddest, most miserable thing on earth
I will always be here for you
And I know that everyone else says that
But I am here and I will be here till the end
Even if you think that the whole world probably hates you by now
I will still be here for you
Why, you ask?
Because I know that I will stay
For you
Even if you think that your whole life is messed up
I'm still here
If you need someone to talk to
I'm still here
If you need comfort
I'm still here
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'm still here
Even if you know that no one else in the world will be there for you
I'm here
Even if you didn't know about my existence
I'm here
For you

-c.s.m

1:00 am

It's one in the morning

And I can't find it in myself to fall asleep

But not because of the thought of you

But because of the thought of being alone

I don't understand 

Why haven't I let go of the thought of being alone?

If someone else can

Why can't I?

Is it because I miss you?

Is it because I'm afraid of the thought of being alone?

Is it because I'm afraid of the thought of you leaving me?

I don't understand 

I don't think I'll ever understand

-c.s.m

I've Moved

Hello everyone! If you haven't noticed already, there are no more posts on this site; That is because I have already moved to my own website! Don't worry, all my old posts are on there if you want to read them. So everything I've written and posted on here (except this, of course) has been moved to there, obviously. Check it out here: clarasantita.com

See you there!

P.S. I will be making this blog into a different kind of blog. I will be posting poetry, quotes, and just random stuff on here. Thank you. :)

-C .x